March ..

A decade ago this was the month wherein the butterflies in my tummy worked overtime .. the baap of all exams .. Final Exams …The End-All-Be-All Final Exams … Nothing got bigger than that … Brings a smile on my face … reminiscing about it …

This March too had a ring of Finality in it … A decision that did not quite take me by surprise .. but awes me still … each time I realise that it has finally been taken …

It has been pretty eventful .. The past coupla months ...

I quit my first job … The cushy 9-6 job that sent me home on business trips … The one that gave me a sooper understanding and cool boss … The one that had me working with colleagues whom I could call friends … The one that gave me buddies with whom I could spill out my naughtiest secrets over rounds of truth-n-dare …

A fond surprise farewell just made Goodbyes tougher … a heavy heart and silent nostalgia later , I dawned in a new beginning … In more ways than one …

There are these times when something keeps staring at ur face but u refuse to come out of your foolish denial .. these times happened way too many times wimme … each time making me realize the frequency of their occurrence .. an Omen ? I believe so …

There are these times too when you get overwhelmed by the sheer enormity of some decisions and prefer to procrastinate rather than taking them head on .. That’s when the 2 towers called parents step in … and as always u can`t help but wonder what would u ever do without them …

It is scarily heady ... how things have fallen into place all by themselves … reaffirming my faith in the Great One above and the ones who I owe my everything to … Mom n Dad ... Thank you for hand-holding me through the biggest decision of my life yet … Thank you for making me realize that there couldn`t be a more wonderful thing than to get married to your best friend … Thank you for sitting me down and making me take note of all those hints I had chosen to ignore … Thank you for giving me Saby … Thank you for making Saby – The best friend into Saby – The partner for life.


I should have realized it when you stood protectively a few feet away from me … while I was getting ragged by your batchies …

I should have realized it when I met your eye each time a drenched and shivering me looked up … As your comrades dunked us hapless souls …

I should`ve realized it when you asked me out for our first walk amidst a crazy JLT and I willingly forego-ed a night of dancing and booze for a quiet walk in the woods and intelligent conversation …

I should`ve realized it when I landed up at your doorstep balancing books notes and papercups filled with lemon tea at 3 in the night demanding to be tutored ... the night before a finance quiz …

I should`ve realized it when we watched our first movie Sweet Home Alabama I guess , and I dozed off , and woke up at dawn to find ... you sleeping in the most uncomfortable of positions on your rickety chair … and your blanket over me …

I should`ve realized it when a drunk me puked my guts out and instead of being turned off for life, you ever so gently carried me all the way to my room breaking girls-dorm rules , inviting serious trouble …

I should’ve realized it when our crazy foursome had our crazy times and in the midst of all the craziness we stole knowing glances and smiles …

I should`ve realized it when I stalked you from one college committee to another and ended up interning at the same organization where you landed your job in …

I should`ve realized it when the first call I made, when life gave me my rudest shock , was to you …

I should`ve realized it when you held my hand through my lowest lows and hopped skipped with me during the precious few highs …

I should`ve realized it when you coached an anxious Mom n Dad over long STD calls, of your own accord, how to use Skype and Gtalk to talk to me when we were different continents apart…

I should`ve realized it when each time I backpacked to a new country I made a mental note to come back there again with you …

I should`ve realized it when I joined work in the same city as you and in less than a year joined the same organization yet again …

I should`ve realised it everytime our eyes found each other across a crowded room ...

I should`ve realised it when everytime you hugged me nothing seemed too difficult ...

A lot many should-haves later …
I realize it every single day when I peek outta my cubicle and flash my brightest smile in the way of a ‘Hi’ and you ‘Good morning’ me and settle down beside me as a co-worker for the next 8 hours …

It took me a while… but finally this overwhelmingly happy realization has sunk in …
… that I love you Saby … in more ways than one ... and there is no other person in this entire world I could possibly think of spending the rest of my life with …